Just suddenly, something's gone. It just disappears. Fade into thin air. The Sun still rises, the moon still becomes full tonight. Everything's the same. 4 years, it just vanished, cease to exist before it even did. Cease to begin to exist. So, everything's normal.

It is just indescribable, one dream of redeeming whatever I have did up till this point was just defenestrated like a torn piece of paper, its content never to be written. I mean, for a certain group of people, an obvious miniority, it is just something metaphysical that we can't grasp anymore, a manifestation of dreams that will never occur. Never.

Well, I am happy that at least a few Secondary 3s do understand the impact of this, to us, I mean that miniority. And there are indeed concrete implications to this delaying. I have no idea what the teacher has planned, as if he planned everything to work out. But does he know what does this step do to the integrity of a group...

Fuck no I am gonna let my big project of the year, one I would commit myself to and let go of other projects, disappear without a fight.

XR said it right. Suns and moons are selfless, because they do not have a consciousness? They are just goddamn masses of chemical compounds creating and reflecting light everywhere. They are just part of a big picture of the Universe working in harmony.

We are humans, the Sec 4s are a sui generis. While we can't explain it, there is a conscious in our minds. We have dreams. We are selfish. While the rest can wait till next year's March, we can't. Because time leaves us clueless. Time forces us to grow with it, an evil manifestation in itself. We grow older, we grow to be more "matured", complicate ourselves with the intricate ladybrinth of the society.

So... before that happens, can't we just try to grasp the fleeting balloon? Can't we, just for a moment, be immature, don't care about what all others feel. And try to grab it back. Yeah, we may feel bad for failing again, but at least we tried.

I am happy that Long Jian, Han Cheng, John, Colin, Gabriel, Dian Yi, Wei Xiang, Modi, Qi Yuan, Xin Rui wants it. Most of you guys reading this probably didn't reply. I want a reply... I guess you all didn't get the point. Kerry probably doesn't want to act anymore, which was the 'half push' reply. I not really sure. Ting Jun, well, wants to support us whatever we do. That's a friend I guess, but he should want to focus on YPPAE, since it seems more fun than what's happening in here now.

That means a no, I guess. Expected though. None of you were bonded to this entity anyway. We are, we have experienced it once, no matter how much of it was a failure, we want to reenact the failure. And make it a success. Waiting it till March... fuck you I am not gonna join Huang Cheng. Not when I feel regret with this.

I may hate normal activities, but not the makings of a production. I don't want to join part of yang's grand scheme of work, however objectively good it is, I only want a piece of pleasant experience.

Hey people, what say you. We aren't late yet. There's until May. I mean, if Minhua's gang can do it... with only like 8 willing people. Why can't we?

Freak, I am gonna skip the Shang Hai shit.

I am gonna try to push for something.

I am gonna try to not procastinate for this anymore.

While trying implies the failure of it,
I am prepared to bear the consequences of it.

I am not gonna go down without a fight.

Secondary 4 is a year where you achieve something.

I have done none so far.

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Hey peeps,
can't we try to find the kind of passion we had then.
None of you may have been in ExCo'07.
But I believe our feelings then were the same.

Tan Kah Kee was not truly ours, I felt that it was over when it was over.
Nothing more.
No feelings of reminisence.

I want to feel another piece of memory long and gone.
Not regret.

At least, can we work together?
Work together to push for something that 99% won't work.
I am certain I will do it.
But I need support.
I need a helluva it if you want 1% higher chance. Of succeeding
I don't you to persuade others. I only want those true to doing something this year.

For those who want to actively try, do tell me. Not by the tagboard, through personal means.
For those who want to give up, yeah it's okay.

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戏剧是一种遗憾的艺术。
但是，若连戏也没有，
有何牵挂、有何遗憾？

人是自私的，
也许这是丑陋的事实。
但是，因为我们自私，
因为我们是有七情六欲，
人生才多姿多彩。

与其安静，不如大声呐喊，
与其放弃，不如全力以赴，
与其失败，不如尝试后再失败，
与其争执，不如先静下心。
与其成功，不如先跌倒。
与其艺韵……有谁，能填这个空白呢？

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I hope, everybody understands.
But I want to try, try to succeed.
Then, even if I fail, I know I did my best.